No. I didn't went for the rally this year, although as much as I wanted to experience it, I was scared to go alone.

I saw and read the news feed in Facebook. In my opinion, I don't really think this year's Bersih rally is a peaceful one. I saw people damaging the wires at the Dataran Merdeka and I felt really unhappy about it. If the authorities doesn't want to let the protesters in than don't go in lorh. Why must 100% go there merh? I mean, it's nothing special also. Just one big plot of land.

And Najib on the other hand also another big problem. I saw him on the news giving his speech, saying that he will give the protesters a place to gather at, which is Dataran Merdeka. And then, another moment he say the protesters will spoil the land. The next moment, he mention giving free water and free food if the protesters need it. And the next moment, wanting to let the protesters have their peaceful rally again.

I mean, what's his problem man? If want to let us have a peaceful rally, what's with the tear gas and water canon larh? What's with the road blocks larh? Make up your mind please!!


This year's Bersih 3.0 wasn't a peaceful one. I saw people throwing empty water bottles at a police car, and I think the driver inside was trying to escape from the people throwing stuff at the car. The driver kinda like lost his patience and press the accelerator, lost control of his car and ran into 2 protesters. If I'm not wrong, there were 2 people inside the car. The protesters kinda like drag one of the driver out from the car and beat the crap out of him. The second driver was pulled out safely, making sure he was okay. Then, out of nowhere, the car was overturn pulak.

In my opinion, they shouldn't have beat the poor guy larh. Just detained him and turn him into the police lorh (even if he's the police). And why need to overturn the car lerh? I know it's the police fault for hitting the 2 protesters but there is no need to overturn the car right? Or is there nothing better to do than to overturn the car?

I shall not type anything further regarding about this matter as I wasn't there to experience it, so I wouldn't know how things were like over there. Do forgive me and correct me if I have made any false facts, but mainly it's just my opinion. Peace.


I'm really glad some of my friends made it home safe and sound. I really do pray to those who were injured during the rally to have a fast recovery.

Lastly, I'm really proud of those who had attended the rally today. Especially to those who weren't so "SAMPAT" and go on destroying public things. You are the true heroes of Malaysia.

And yes, 3 months of holiday-ing is over. Things have come to an end, which includes my job as well.

So, hello to University and stress again!! That kind of feeling you get when you go to Uni. It feels kinda good, like a fresh new start in life.

Studying in University is like having STPM every 3 months. It's like mind-fucking you. And by the end of every 3 months, you'll be so beat up you can just drop dead. And you're gonna repeat this process for the next 3 years or so. So sien right?

I know. But, what to do. If you want a future, you have to work hard to earn it.

Sien. I'm so looking forward for my internship, I think. But let's hope I won't fail anymore subjects. =.=

Working as a waitress/waiter is tiring enough, and the the only thing you look forward to is tippings from customers. However, not every customers are nice enough to tip you (life's hard buddy). .

Woke up this morning with puffy eyes. Still a bit stunted of what had happen yesterday.

Went to work as usual, my feelings and emotions had finally settled down. Finally learnt how to accept the things the way they are.

Now, I'm quite certain on what I want, and I'm going to be straight-forward with everyone and everything.

If I can handle fussy customers and nuisance customers, then I should be able to handle my members and my people.

BE A BOSS MOU?!

I'm really worked up.

Working as a part-time waitress and being a president for a orphanage outing which is due to be at the end of March. Committees not giving their support, all not coming for meeting, etc.

This is my first time doing this event, and I admit it's totally mind-fuck. So, I'm sitting down in front of my computer and bawling like a baby while typing this post out.

I'm really stress. I'm suffering the same stress as the one during D2YC 2011, while I was struggling with my exam and my secretary job.

I think about it everyday. EVEN when I go to sleep, I also think about it. When I go to work, I also not happy. I worry too much, which makes my job really sad. My workers look at me also don't want to talk to me, because I look miserable and trouble.

I'm so miserable these days. I don't even know how to describe it. I thought of giving up and throwing all my responsibilities away. Sometimes, the word "suicide" also comes to my mind, but it's incredibly stupid to do it. My emotions is taking over me and I can't help it. It's clouding my mind and I can't think carefully.

I'm seriously looking forward to the end of March.

I just want to end everything.