I'm really worked up.
Working as a part-time waitress and being a president for a orphanage outing which is due to be at the end of March. Committees not giving their support, all not coming for meeting, etc.
This is my first time doing this event, and I admit it's totally mind-fuck. So, I'm sitting down in front of my computer and bawling like a baby while typing this post out.
I'm really stress. I'm suffering the same stress as the one during D2YC 2011, while I was struggling with my exam and my secretary job.
I think about it everyday. EVEN when I go to sleep, I also think about it. When I go to work, I also not happy. I worry too much, which makes my job really sad. My workers look at me also don't want to talk to me, because I look miserable and trouble.
I'm so miserable these days. I don't even know how to describe it. I thought of giving up and throwing all my responsibilities away. Sometimes, the word "suicide" also comes to my mind, but it's incredibly stupid to do it. My emotions is taking over me and I can't help it. It's clouding my mind and I can't think carefully.
I'm seriously looking forward to the end of March.
I just want to end everything.
Working as a part-time waitress and being a president for a orphanage outing which is due to be at the end of March. Committees not giving their support, all not coming for meeting, etc.
This is my first time doing this event, and I admit it's totally mind-fuck. So, I'm sitting down in front of my computer and bawling like a baby while typing this post out.
I'm really stress. I'm suffering the same stress as the one during D2YC 2011, while I was struggling with my exam and my secretary job.
I think about it everyday. EVEN when I go to sleep, I also think about it. When I go to work, I also not happy. I worry too much, which makes my job really sad. My workers look at me also don't want to talk to me, because I look miserable and trouble.
I'm so miserable these days. I don't even know how to describe it. I thought of giving up and throwing all my responsibilities away. Sometimes, the word "suicide" also comes to my mind, but it's incredibly stupid to do it. My emotions is taking over me and I can't help it. It's clouding my mind and I can't think carefully.
I'm seriously looking forward to the end of March.
I just want to end everything.
Went to Mid Valley with my closed friend to get a "belated" valentines rose for a friend.
While the florist was busy packing the rose, I went through the deck of cards that were up for display, and I bumped into this quote which was written inside in one of the cards.
"For every minute you are angry you lose sixty seconds of happiness." ― Ralph Waldo Emerson
It made my day. :)
Just recently started a new job as a waitress in a cafe. They are paying RM6 per hour, which is quite a descent salary for part-timers. This is the 6th day I have been working there.
This is an one and only cafe in whole Malaysia. Thus, there are 5 boss (foreigners) who are in charge of this cafe!!! That's like, HOLY CRUTZ?!
Compared to Pizza Hut, the working environment here is so much different than Pizza Hut. At first, I find it quite hard to cope with the change of environment on my first day of work, but than I got used to it and I fell in love with it!!
The reason why I like the environment here is because they provide so much freedom for the workers here!! They can do what they want to do, as long as they WORK. It is less systematic, thus workers can work in their own comfortable way. They can make their own drinks, but not the so-very-expensive-ones. All the waitress/waiters are the cashier themselves. Compared to Pizza Hut, the cashier is only in charge of withdrawing/exchanging money, other workers are not allowed to do any cashing out.
Another reason I like working here is because of the workers. They know when to work, and when to play. They know what and whom to prioritize first. They are willing to teach and help when you ASK THEM. My boss and managers here are very much caring and nice.
Hygiene and cleanliness is above average. Not much of the cleaning is needed. I do not need to wash plates, cups, and cutleries anymore. Yay!! :D
Lastly, more tips and better uniform!!! :D Ngeh! Ngeh!
Thus, there are more things that I actually like, but I am just too lazy to write it all in detail.
I think......
I fell in love with my job! =)
This is an one and only cafe in whole Malaysia. Thus, there are 5 boss (foreigners) who are in charge of this cafe!!! That's like, HOLY CRUTZ?!
Compared to Pizza Hut, the working environment here is so much different than Pizza Hut. At first, I find it quite hard to cope with the change of environment on my first day of work, but than I got used to it and I fell in love with it!!
The reason why I like the environment here is because they provide so much freedom for the workers here!! They can do what they want to do, as long as they WORK. It is less systematic, thus workers can work in their own comfortable way. They can make their own drinks, but not the so-very-expensive-ones. All the waitress/waiters are the cashier themselves. Compared to Pizza Hut, the cashier is only in charge of withdrawing/exchanging money, other workers are not allowed to do any cashing out.
Another reason I like working here is because of the workers. They know when to work, and when to play. They know what and whom to prioritize first. They are willing to teach and help when you ASK THEM. My boss and managers here are very much caring and nice.
Hygiene and cleanliness is above average. Not much of the cleaning is needed. I do not need to wash plates, cups, and cutleries anymore. Yay!! :D
Lastly, more tips and better uniform!!! :D Ngeh! Ngeh!
Thus, there are more things that I actually like, but I am just too lazy to write it all in detail.
I think......
I fell in love with my job! =)
There were a lot of things I wanted to write about this post, but words itself is not enough to express my love towards D2Y.
Hence, I would like to thank D2Y for giving me this wonderful experience to experience it all. Being a 'sexytary', a day manager and a group facilitator taught me a lot of things, which money itself can't buy.
Being with you people made me realize what it means to meet true Kalyana Mitras. And remember what we have shared during the 2nd committee meeting at SABS? Where we shared the goals on what we wanna achieve at the end of the camp?
Haha... I remembered that clearly, which was to get to know every committee as a friend, and not only as a D2Y committee. :)
But, there's something else which I didn't get a chance to say it...
I think I had just fallen in love with you, D2Y. :)
Sprained my ankle last week during a game of badminton.
The saddest part is, I have to watch people play during the last 30 minutes of the badminton match.
Not sure of the reason how I sprained it. Might be due to the lack of warm-up, or the stunts I did was too extreme =.=
And, not forgetting the people who made my injury 'feel' better... :D
Well.... sort of?
I am my hero.
I liked how kennysia did his birthday post most of the time, so I thought of doing the same thing. So, that I would be able to look back on what I've achieved while I was 18 :p
18 things I did while I was 18...
1. Appeared for the first time in a small column in Sunday Strait Times for MYSAYS.
2. Entering University life.
3. Became Champion of MTV Exit Bold Lipstick Competition.
4. Appeared in newspaper for the second time, for winning MTV Exit BLC.
5. Became responsible as so-called class monitor for BBS (and BBM?).
6. Participated in D2Y Camp X and discovered my so-called 'hidden' potential!
7. Experienced entering in a badminton competition (IBYF 2011) for the first time, and not as a SUBSTITUTE.
8. Entered a male's toilet for the first time.
9. Experienced being surrounded by thousands of Koreans freaks/fans.
10. Worked as a sales assistant in PDI for my 2nd job experience.
11. Nominated for Sunway Grand Annual Ball 2011 - Best New Comer.
12. Bid Su Wei Farewell.
13. Became one of the committees in D2YC 2011.
14. Had my first taste of beer.
15. Attended my first Terry Fox Run, in memory of my uncle who had recently passed away due to cancer.
16. Drove to Uni without my IC and driving license. LOL.
17. Attended the most volunteering service that I've never done in my life!!
- Standard Chartered Marathon KL 2011
- Adidas - King of the Road
- OCBC Cycle Event 2011 (2 days straight!)
- Nike Run - We Run KL 10km
- Wesak Day - Go Green Project
- BGF Food Fair - Go Green Project
- Sunway Ambassador - Sunway Charity Concert
- Sunway Ambassador - Sunway Public Speaking Competition
18. Getting to know and get along with my University/College mates well :)
Today, I turned 19 years old. :)
I DON'T STOP when I'm TIRED,
I STOP when I'm DONE.
