"I didn't wish to be alone," says the 26-year old girl. "I travelled to so many countries around the world, met so many people, and done so many crazy shit with strangers, but yet I'm still alone.
"Don't get me wrong, I do have a family, and a few besties, but even when you're surrounded by people, it's still possible to feel lonely."
"Because in life, that happens. No matter how much you love the people around you, or how much they love you, there are still people who are gonna leave."
With small but quick steps, she quietly went around the corner of a secluded park. The big pine tree helped to blocked her from the public view. With one last glance, to ensure that no one was looking, she pulled her pink hoodie over her head, and finally lied down on the pale, dry grass.
Placing her hands on top of her stomach, she heaved a huge sigh as she looked up at the empty skies.
There were no sounds, only the sound of her continuous heartbeat can be heard.
She closed her eyes to absorb the quietness around her.
Her body relaxed, and her mind filled with serenity.
"Finally." She thought to herself. "This was something that I wanted to do in a long time. To lie back down on the grass and look up at the sky, and to be at internal bliss."
"So, any questions?" the interviewer asked finally, after a 10 minute interview with us.
Both me and another candidate shook our heads lightly. "Nope," I said.
Actually I do. A lot actually, I thought to myself. There were a lot of uncertainties in my mind, but I thought it would be inappropriate to ask so many questions in just one interview.
"Great! If no, then I would like to dismissed the interview," the interviewer said as he stood up from his seat. "But before that, I would like to have a few moments with Susan for awhile. Just for 5 seconds. So Fariq, thanks for coming for the interview, we would contact you when you're shortlisted for the job."
Wait. What? Did he say he wants to speak privately with me?! I thought. He isn't going to offer me the job right away, right? Isn't it too soon?
The interviewer shook Fariq hands, said his thanks, and walked out the door. The door closed lightly behind him.
"Susan, I just want to have a bit of your time. Just 5 seconds," he said as he sat back down in his seat.
"Yeah, sure," I said.
"I noticed something about your behaviour, and I find it.... well.... a bit too much," he said, smiling. Clearly, his face looked a little bit displeased. "So I thought that this advice that I'm gonna give you might help you in your future."
I sat quietly in my seat, feeling afraid that he's going to say something which I wasn't sure of.
Oh noooo..... What did I do wrong this time? I thought to myself, feeling slightly embarrassed.
"I noticed that your tongue is moving around too much, and your body as well. I think it's a bit too much. So I just wanna know....."
Before he could finish his sentences, I immediately sat back and laughed, politely.
原来是这样！(So it was about this!) I thought to myself.
"Oh no, sir! I think it's because of my braces," I said, delightfully, but yet feeling bashful at the same time. "I just got it done this year January!"
"Ahh... I see. No wonder. I understand now!" he said, smiling.
"I was trying to get water to drink because I was thirsty, that's why I was moving around so much!" I said, as I cover my mouth with the tip of my fingers. "I'm soooo sorry! I know that it's annoying! But I'm trying to get used to it, especially when it comes to speaking!"
“Ah. It’s fine. I just wanted to know, and at least I understand now,” he said.
“So that’s all you wanted to say to me? About my braces?”
“That’s all of it,” he said as he got up from his seat to open the door for me.
“I see. I thought you were going to talk to me something else other than that!” I said as I got up from my seat at the same time. “But thanks, thanks for letting me know. I appreciate feedback like this. I like feedbacks like this, no matter if it’s negative, because it helps me learn and grow.”
“I know,” he smiled. “Because you look like that kind of person that does.”
"I had a weird dream last night," said Pei Wen. "It's about a guy."
His eyes blinked with interest as he looked at Pei Wen, sitting opposite across the table. He sat up straight in his chair, resting his elbows on the table.
"Tell me about it! How weird is it? Is the guy handsome?" he teased.
Pei Wen bit her lip, looking uncertain whether to tell him about her dream.
"Well... it's not that weird actually...," said Pei Wen. "I think you know that person, just that I'm not sure whether you wanna listen to it."
"Tell me! Tell me!" he begged. "Is the story sweet? How's the beginning and the ending?"
"Fine...," Pei Wen sighed. "So the story goes like this..."
* * *
There was once a girl who fell deeply in love with a boy, but she didn't dare to confess her true feelings to him. She was afraid that it would destroy the friendship between the both of them, if he rejects. Wanting to confess her undying love for him, but also feeling afraid of being rejected, she decided to send him a love letter on Valentines Day.
During Valentines Day, she gave him the love letter. Inside the letter was her written confession about her feelings to him. However, when the boy opened the letter, he found out that the letter was actually blank! Not a single word or pen ink was shown on the letter! He felt confuse, but he didn't ask the girl any questions about the blank letter.
One day, the boy and girl went out together. They were both standing at the main entrance at the shopping mall, waiting to say goodbyes and go their separate ways. The girl ask the boy whether he had read the letter that she had given to him. The boy shook his head sadly and said no. The girl felt disappointed. She turned around, and started to leave.
"Wait!" the boy said.
The girl turned around to look at him.
"我可能开始喜欢了你了。怎么办呢?" he said in Chinese.
(I may be starting to like you. What should I do?)
The girl look at him with a blank facial expression, but she found those words very familiar.
The boy slowly walked towards her, avoiding her eye contact, feeling bashful.
He stood closely in front of her, and slowly entwined his fingers with hers, and said:
“这，就是我的答案。"
(This, is my answer.)
The girl smiled, and leaned her forehead against his chest.
“How did you found out the hidden message?” she asked. “It was written with a special magic ink.”
“I…,” he paused.
“I roasted the letter in the oven.”
* * *
“So, you are that girl?” Chuen asked.
“Don’t know. Maybe?” said Pei Wen. “Anyway, it’s just a dream. It’s not real…”
‘Although I want it to be’, said inside her heart.
“And who’s that guy?” Chuen asked. “Is it one of our friend? A superstar?!”
“Nope, but I think you saw him before. He’s someone you know.”
“Walao! Give some hint lerh!” he begged. “Is it Chim Ming? Hong Jun? Yin Wen? En Rong?”
Pei Wen laughed. “Whatever answer you're gonna give me, I won’t give you a direct answer.”
Chuen threw her a face, and continued guessing.
* * *
Oh, you dummy! That guy was actually you all along. ♥
I saw her lying on the inclined bed, and smiled slyly at her.
"On Chinese New Year, people visit relatives and friends house, but you? You visit hospital. Walao eh, seriously?" I said sarcastically.
She laughed, but not so much as she struggled to breath through her oxygen mask.
"But why? Why didn't you tell me that you're in the hospital?" I asked disappointedly. "Am I no longer in your heart anymore?"
She looked down in guilt, avoiding my eye contact, and said, nothing.
* * *
But somewhere deep inside, I cried a little.
I cried when I found out that pneumonia is dangerous, and you might die from it.
I cried because I'm afraid, that I won't be able to see you again.
Chapter 22.08: How I Almost Destroyed Valentines Day
By steambunz - Saturday, February 14, 2015
3 years ago on Valentine's Day, I was working as a part-time waitress in a high class restaurant, serving almost 600++ customers, couples, and families between the month of January and February.
In preparation for Valentines Day, the tables in the grand dining hall were properly arranged and beautifully decorated with a lighted scented candle, a set of complete cutleries for two, and a paper menu set beside the candle. The curtain blinders were rolled up, revealing the buzzing people at the side of the streets. The lights were also dimmed, and soft music filled the room, hence, setting a cosy, warm, and romantic environment.
It was about 9pm, the crowd was much lesser since it was almost our closing time, hence, it was less busy for us. There were only 2 couples sitting inside the dining hall, chatting away while I was doing my round of collecting and putting away the dishes.
Suddenly, something caught my attention right at the corner of my eye.
As I turned to faced the table right in front of me, I noticed that the paper menu on the table was starting to burn!
As I turned to faced the table right in front of me, I noticed that the paper menu on the table was starting to burn!
For a moment, I stood there staring blankly at the burning menu, now in flames.
My mind was screaming at me to get water or scream for help, but my feet just stood rooted against the floor, not wanting me to move! On the other hand, my colleague, Dale, was behind the bar counter, unaware of the whole situation.
My mind was screaming at me to get water or scream for help, but my feet just stood rooted against the floor, not wanting me to move! On the other hand, my colleague, Dale, was behind the bar counter, unaware of the whole situation.
Should I get Dale to put out the fire?! Or should I just put out the fire myself?! I thought to myself.
Even at this situation, I could still hear Adele's chorus echoing at the back of my mind: "Set fireeeeeee... to the rain!" Except that there was no rain, it was practically just fire!
Even at this situation, I could still hear Adele's chorus echoing at the back of my mind: "Set fireeeeeee... to the rain!" Except that there was no rain, it was practically just fire!
It was such an obvious, and stupid question that I'm asking myself.
Even so, I still stood there blankly watching the fire with a bit if amusement and in awe, the fire, now bigger, which is now burning through the table cloth, as if I've never seen a fire before. lol.
Even so, I still stood there blankly watching the fire with a bit if amusement and in awe, the fire, now bigger, which is now burning through the table cloth, as if I've never seen a fire before. lol.
Out of a sudden, I came back to my senses when I saw a couple stood up in their seats. Their faces looked horrified as they noticed the current situation. I snapped back into reality, and immediately sprang into action. I turned around in circles, running frantically back and forth, and around the dining hall looking for a source of water. Dale was still busy cleaning up some dishes behind the bar counter. When I saw the leftover cup of water on top of the bar counter, I immediately took it and splashed it across the table.
The fire was immediately extinguished, and what was left was a soaked table, and huge burnt hole in the middle of the tablecloth. The table was stained black in the middle.
The fire was immediately extinguished, and what was left was a soaked table, and huge burnt hole in the middle of the tablecloth. The table was stained black in the middle.
I continued to stood there, staring at the horrible messed for a few minutes, questioning myself on what had just happened.
"Do you smell something burning?" I heard Dale spoke up behind me.
I turned around to look at him, my face still as blank as ever.
I pointed towards the burnt table, and his facial expression suddenly dropped.
"WHAT HAPPENED?!" he asked frantically, his face filled with shock.
I pointed towards the burnt table, and his facial expression suddenly dropped.
"WHAT HAPPENED?!" he asked frantically, his face filled with shock.
I looked at him, and shrugged.
* * *
So yeah, if you're still feeling sad because you're still single for Valentine's Day...
Don't be. lol
Because nothing can't be worst than almost (unintentionally) setting fire to a high class restaurant on Valentine's Day. So yeah, being single is not that bad. lol
But maybe that's why I'm still single ~(--..--)~
Happy Valentines Day & Gong Xi Fa Chai !!
"Sir, I may not be working here anymore," I said sadly, as I looked at him.
He turned to face me, but said nothing. He was a regular customer in his mid-50's, but I never got to know his name, even after working almost a year here.
I smiled widely at him, "I've just graduated."
He smiled back at me, and that was the moment that I knew that he was secretly happy for me, but yet a little sad that I was leaving.
Chapter 22.06: The Lecturer Who Almost Made Me Lose My 2nd Upper Class
By steambunz - Friday, January 23, 2015
"Yes, come in." A muffled voice came inside from the closed office door.
I barged into his office.
"Dr.Chengggg!!!!"
He sighed. "Yesssssss... ."
His toned was calm and cool, but slightly annoyed, as if he was expecting someone to clobber him with a club already. He looked at me, not feeling surprised that I was that person.
"I wanna chop you already!" I said hysterically while waving my result slip in front of him, smiling. "I almost lost my 2nd upper class because of youuuuu!!"
I just obtained my official semester result slip, guaranteeing me the 2nd upper class that I wanted, but I wasn't happy until I teased my subject lecturer. I wanted to teased him for my own satisfaction, like how he teased me with my final examination marks.
He sighed.
"Listen, listen. It's not my fault, I can explain," he said boringly. He sounded as if he had explained it for the 1010th times. "The marks wasn't supposed to be like that, but after going through some external markers, they lowered the marks, so it's not my fault. It is Lancaster requirement..... Yada.... yada.... yada...."
I sat comfortably at the chair in front of his table, refusing to listen to the usual "Lancaster requirement standards" talk. I've graduated, so I didn't really care. On the other hand, Mr.Gan, my research project supervisor, who was seated opposite of him, smiled at the conversation that we were having.
".... so that's why the marks is not to what you expected."
"You know Dr.Cheng," I said as I stood up to look at him. "Sometimes in life, there will always be that one person who you’ll remember for something. And so, I will remember you. I will remember you for the person who almost make me lose my 2nd upper class!” I teased him, evilly.
“The person who almost make you lose your 2nd upper class, huh?” He repeated “That’s very interesting, huh?” He said sarcastically as he smiled.
“The person who almost make you lose your 2nd upper class, huh?” He repeated “That’s very interesting, huh?” He said sarcastically as he smiled.
* * *
He was my class lecturer for 3 subjects.
Product Development and Commercialization. International Marketing. Marketing Strategy.
But I will remember him, I will remember him as the lecturer who almost made me lose my 2nd Upper Class. Because that sounds more interesting than a normal subject lecturer.
I skipped happily towards her, feeling excited to tell her something.
"Wanna see durians?" I asked my friend as I arrived on the stretching area from where she is standing, slightly panting.
"Where did you go, doofus?!" She raised her voice, feeling slightly annoyed and angry.
She always call people 'doofus' when she's angry or when she thinks the person is dumb or noob, although I don't know what that means.
"Wanna see durians?" I repeated the question, ignoring her, not letting her destroy my excitement.
"I've seen them before," she brushed me off.
"Since when?! Liar! No you didn't! Let me show you some durians!"
I held my right hand in front of her and open up my palms.
"Here! Mini durians!" I smiled gleefully at her.
"Here! Mini durians!" I smiled gleefully at her.
