Just finished another story book which I bought from Scholarstic in school. Finished it in 2 days. I could have finished the whole book in 1 day if the computer didn't get in my way =="

Serious, it's a very touching story (for people who understands the content and thinks very deeply into the meaning).

I shed a few tears in school while reading it.

(Yeah, I spend my whole freaking day in school reading non-stop and only stops for breaks during recess)

Really touching. Try reading it.

Last night, I told my mom about my results. She was in a good mood and I thought it would be a good time to tell her.

She wasn't really mad. I really thought she was gonna kick me out from the car (because she was fetching me back from tuition). But, things didn't get any better. She didn't talk about my subjects which I failed.

She ask me whether I got pray to God for my exams. I said no, because I thought, no use praying to God if I don't help myself.

Then she start nagging about praying and stuff...and say I'm useless without praying, etc, etc.

And I broke down in tears, crying silently in the car without her noticing. Just pretending to act as if I'm not crying.

It was really hard. I'm slow. Yeah, my brain was created to be a short-term memory person.

FULL STOP

Throw that incident away shall we?

My 4 best friends. Su Wei, Lydia, Yean Lynn & Sara.

Hohoho...they may be all smarter then me but there's only 1 subject I beat them in the final exam...

which is...

ENGLISH!!!!

Hohohohoohhohohoho...xD

Lydia, Su Wei & Yean Lynn were like...sooooooo jealous of me getting so high marks and Yean only lost 1 mark to getting A2 for English.

They hitted me.

They beat me.

They keep asking why I get so high marks.

They hit me again.

and...

it doesn't hurt at all...== really...

Well, so be it. That's my naturally of getting high marks wad...it makes me feel much better and not stupid...xD

Erm, one last thing. I'm not showing-off. Thank you. You better go die if you think I were showing-off.


I should deserve this for not cheating in test.

I'm proud of you Siew Lin :D
Even Miss Liew says it herself :3

I love myself for who I am :)

I know I didn't score well. And I hate the fact that I didn't archived my goal in getting 3 A1's but 1 A1 and 2 A2's. Well, it's too bad then. I didn't think positively while doing my exam papers. And EVERYTHING ELSE SUCKS because...

I wasn't perfect.

My mom is definately going to nag and scold me again. Maybe banned me from playing computer for the rest of my living days.

I'm sorry mom.

But I won't regret what I have done because this is the best I could give it all out.
You want to banned me, scold me, nag at me or whatever that is...I still won't regret.

I'm sorry, I'm not perfect.



English - 91% (A1)
Bahasa Melayu - 36%
Science - 71% (A2)
Modern Mathematics - 45%
History - 17%
Accounting - 36%
Economics - 36%
Art - 78% (A2)
Moral - 60%
Civics - [update tomorrow]

My Msn Name I wrote "ČħǍr SỉєẀ рẪờ a.k.a ČђϋẤђ SỉЄẂ ĽĩŃ - ♥ ý♂ũ åñđ мĕ♀ ♥ ._.v"

Kenton : you and me?
Me : lol...?
Kenton : i know you love me but
Me : .......
Kenton : you can't see me until next year
Me : -.-"
Kenton : do miss me okay?
Me : -.-" definately never...
Kenton : don't lie to yourself
Me : -.-" i would vomit blood if i did...-.- [a vomit emoticon pic]
Kenton : but i'm hot
Me : then you should be walking around the school.......naked
Kenton : oh baby, you're so naughty
Me : LOL!!! GO DIE LARH YOU!!! [a killing emoticon pic]
Kenton : lol

[Conversation ended]

Failed my BM.

Failed...

Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. Failed.

Haizz...nearly 4 more marks then pass leh.

Freaking BM.

Must get at least pass if not I will flock my whole SPM exam next year.


Yesterday night, practise the drawing and painting.
Draw until bo mood draw and then I messed up the whole painting.

Just.

1.

Tiny.

Drop of wrong paint.

The whole stupid paper messed up.

rawr :(

Then I packed my stuff and found this scooter in the store room.



So frustrated that I rode the scooter around inside the house. Still nice and smooth, even after 6 years keeping it.

Weeeeeeeeeee~~~

And watch TV. The show so nice & cute leh. The character so cute and stupid. Lol... It was in Disney Channel. Forgot the title. -.-"
But it was an animated movie. It inflicts back what I was doing earlier (painting).

Then dunno..lol..I cry in bed then sleep...lol...-.-" pls dun ask me why.

Then almost want to sleep then my phone suddenly rang. It was ahtan.
I lazy to pick up the phone, so I ask my sister to answer. :x
...then I fall asleep...lolx...
Was wondering why he called so late at night.

Then this morning, read his message. He help me found a team for El-Nath pq to get ifrit.

Thank you philiptan!!! xD

This morning school art test went okay I guess. 3 hours sitting there. -.-

The mixture with the colours came out the way I wanted them to be. But I still think the picture is ugleeeee.
But who cares. Maybe the teacher way of viewing it is different and can give me high marks.
Weeeeeeeeeeeee~~lol...

So shall end here. So far only BM results came out today. Hoping for more.

Love you so much. :3

Oh weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!

I got my 2 favourite subjects exam results!!!

English & Science~ x3333333333333333333333333

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~~~~~~~~

Guess how much I got for my English Bloggey~x3

I got 91% for English!!!! Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~

Paper 1 score was 76/85.
Paper 2 score was 69/75.

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~~~

The highest English mark in class was 92%, score by Koh Siew Jean.
The 2nd highest was Joey (91% also) and Meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~x33333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~~

Yeah! Okay...an A1 was archived...another 2 more A's to go.

Then Alvin came in and distributed the Science results papers.

I got 71% overall... :((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( sad..... :(
Only A2....

I'm sad :((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
No A1 leh.... :(((((((((((((((((((((((((((
Only A2 nia :((((((((((((((((((((((( *sobz...

Means only can score only 2 A1's nia... :((((((((((((((((

Highest in Science was 80%, scored by Yap Jia Ying.
2nd highest was Lydia Cheong, 73%
and 3rd highest is me, 71%.

:(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad...................

no A1......................................... :(

but overall, I was quite happy. I say "QUITE".
But still...i want those 3A1's!!!! :(

3 more papers to go.

Tomorrow's test is Art Paper 2.
Better get going and brush up with my drawing.
MUST GET A1!!! MUST!!!


I love you bloggey~x3

and thanks to Him, that his name was written in my English essay, that I got an A1. :D

This essay is definately dedicated to you my Dear~x3
MuackzZ~love you most~ x3

Tagged by Jeffrey

1. What is the relationship of you with him/her?
nothing in common. Church friend.

2. Your 5 impressions towards him/her.
famous among the gang? funny?

3. The most memorable thing he had done for you?
Make me laugh?

4. The most memorable thing he have said to you?
Erh...we seldom talk?

5. If he become your lover, you will...
I vomit blood [sorry...not interested in relationships now]

6. If he become your enemy, you will...
why hate me? im innocent :(

7. If he become your lover, he has to improve on..
don't think about it...

8. If she become your enemy, the reason is..
no idea...told you im innocent wad...!!! :(((((((((

9. The most desirable thing to do for him is?
submit the monday captain ball thingy? [but i never did :x]

10. The overall impression of him is...
cool? funny? and dislkes holding girls hands?

11. How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
im a timid person? ._.

12. The character of you for yourself is?
because I love myself for being me

13. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
eh....i love myself...that's that...

14. The most ideal person you want to be is?
no one. myself. i still love myself n im better then anyone else although u think i suck

15. For the people who care about and likes you, say something about them.
I love you all~x3

*i lazy to tag pple leh...i change question better...

Ten people whom you're thinking now.
1. Sara
2. Yean Lynn
3. Si Ting
4. Him
5. lynnliu piggy
6. Pn.Alena [coz...i waiting for my science results nia...==]
7. Him
8. Him
9. Him
10. and Him

Who is number 2 having a relationship with?
LOL...Yean!! Lucky you...== Mok Wai Hoe

Is number 3 a male of a female?
100% female

If number 7 and 10 were together would it be a good thing?
Eeww...gross...

How about number 5 and 8?
piggy got a boyfriend...==

What is number 1 studying about?
Art Stream~Accounting, Art, Economics, etc.

Is number 4 single?
NO!!! HE'S TAKEN BY ME!! :((( Don't try to snatch him away from me

Say something about 6?
My science teacher. Adores me most~x3 And i too, adore her x3.
Hope her son gets well soon from a decease which i forgot wat was it...
And I'm waiting for her to mark my results. ==

I notice that...this isn't the Chuah Siew Lin I knew back then...

she doesn't type foul languages nor types "*"...

this is not the old me...this is the new me who is turning over to the bad side...

What am I doing?

I'm being brain-wash for all these while and I didn't even realise it...

Wake up Siew Lin!!!

This isn't me...I'm faking the old Siew Lin...

I, Chuah Siew Lin, is not allowed to type nor say any foul languages, starting from today onwards and will follow the 5 precepts as stated in the Buddhist 5 Precepts.
Siew Lin.





I realise I can't cry over spilt milk anymore.

Over that fail economy subject...can't help...it's already over...

If the school were to force me to drop the subject...
I WILL NOT...i think...

I HAVE MY RIGHTS!!! WHY DO THEY WANT US TO DROP THE SUBJECT WHEN WE FAILED IT WHEN THEY EVEN WANT US TO LEARN IT IN THE FIRST PLACE!!!

I MAY NOT HAVE THE BRAINS TO THINK LOGICALLY BUT I HAVE THE TALENTS TO SHOW THEM, I WILL!!!

I MAY HAVE FAIL IT 3 TIMES OR 4 TIMES IN A ROW BUT SO WHAT?

WHY CAN'T LET US LEARN ECONOMY TILL NEXT YEAR SPM?

WHAT TYPE OF SCHOOL IS THIS?

STUPID SCHOOL!!! LOOK DOWN ON US LIKE THIS.

DON'T U DARE LOOK DOWN ON US & ECSPECIALLY ME!!!

IF I CAN DO IT, I WILL DO IT!!!

Got back my Paper 2 Economics Paper...

Wt*...

Put all my effort and hard work for that ****ing paper and I got 17 out of 100...
That's just...like...30% of chances I will fail!!! Wth...?!

According to Sara's calculation...& her predictions......*coughs*

If I get 40 questions all correct in Economics Paper 1, I will have a just-nice pass results...

*tut*

Who do you think I am? GOD?!
(If I were one, I wouldn't have created exams...)

I can't get all 40 questions correct!!!...so far...only 10-15 question I only can get it right...

HaizzZ...

Sara suggested I cheat in test to get the marks so that I won't drop my economics for SPM...it's an reasonable excuse to cheat....

-___- wait...I'm not those kind of students who cheats in tests, right Chuah Siew Lin?

I'm innocent!!! I won't do that. That's...a sin? lol...no, seriously...I won't do that if not I banned myself eating Char Siew Pao for the whole month...TT

Oh, btw...those students who cheated in test, some got a little bit higher then me but mostly all lower marks...hohoho...their so stupid...really...just a bunch of faggots who is too lazy to use their brains to think.

Get it?

F-A-G-G-O-T-S

The highest marks so far in class is 50++, scored by Ching Mae.

Sara got 38~lol...

Most common results were about 20-30++ only...

fail bah...!!!

My classmates who is sitting the same boat as mine (same results as mine), so far I know is Tracy & Yee Ling. -.- haizz...

*Siew Lin, Tracy and Yee Ling on the boat, singing*
*Row-row-row your boat gently down the stream...*
*Sees waterfall*
*Everyone screams and rows backwards faster* (-.-...see...im being lame again...)

I understand the lessons so far but yet still fail...

MERVYNN THINKS THAT MY ECONOMICS WERE SO PRO!!! *faints & dies*

WHY?!! WHY DOES IS HAVE TO BE LIKE THIS?!

TELL ME WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*sigh...............

my first subject that failed...

what's next then?

Recently...

I met a guy...

He studies in the same school as mine. But 1 year older then me. He was in a relationship, with his girlfriend. Yes, she's very pretty and fair indeed. She can run faster then me too!!! D:< roar....

We sometimes chat together in MSN whenever we were online, but never talk in school, but the common's "Hi" & "Bye" greetings.

I call him fat fat. And he calls me pau pau. (-__-" lol)

Like my own self, I talk to him like the way I always talk to my friends...
to put it simple, being myself.

Then we would always call each other stupid or dumb dumb, etc.etc.

One fine day, he told me that his relationship broke up. I didn't ask him why, because....

I'm not a busybody...lol...(unlike somebody...)

Then...

out of nowhere...

he ask me...

to be his gf...

I dunno what happen to me after that, the receptors in my head lost connection and I couldn't think.

Thank God, I was able to think again...and I snapped into my senses...

and I say, I'm not interested...

He ask me why? I confronted him that I'm really not interested to be in a relationship and how could we like each other when we just only known each other in such a short amount of time.

I am really not interested in love anymore...

He say that we could try...but I confronted him again saying that it won't work out like we think it could...

After that, we didn't talk about it anymore...

...he will be having his SPM not long after these few weeks...he asked me wheather I could teach him Form 4 Science, since I was "good" at it...

I agreed and planned to stay back on Wednesday after school to teach him Science, which when the school reopens after the Deepavali holidays...

I was nervous at first, but in my other way of thinking...

I will take up my challenge for what God has planned for me and will fulfil it.
Maybe God wants me to help this person? I don't have a clue.

Then somehow on that day, after school...

the school library was close...and he first time walk to me and told me he's not staying back to study and going home...

I slumped into the canteen chair and acted as if I was dissapointed.
He asked me wheather I want to come over his house.

Of coz...my answer is a BLOODY NO!!!

I said nevermind and bid him farewell.

Deep inside, I was angry. Angry of what?
Angry of wasting my time loh, then what?

Sara was forced to stay back with me just to teached that bloody guy...

And all I cost for her is hardship for her to stay back with me doing nothing...

Yean Lynn was laughing at me and saying I'm so so so so so so...watever she says la...sumthing about me too kind-hearted or watever...

She rubbed the salt into my wounds, and make my feelings even worst...

Funny, I found it, because I didn't burst out crying like a baby...lol...

I've changed. Hardly.

So, I stayed back with Sara till 4pm studying Science together. After that, we walk to 7-Eleven to relax ourself. Only the 2 of us.

Somehow I feel so bad for making Sara stay back with me...for nothing.

A COMPLETE JERK HE IS...