Tagged by Jeffrey

1. What is the relationship of you with him/her?
nothing in common. Church friend.

2. Your 5 impressions towards him/her.
famous among the gang? funny?

3. The most memorable thing he had done for you?
Make me laugh?

4. The most memorable thing he have said to you?
Erh...we seldom talk?

5. If he become your lover, you will...
I vomit blood [sorry...not interested in relationships now]

6. If he become your enemy, you will...
why hate me? im innocent :(

7. If he become your lover, he has to improve on..
don't think about it...

8. If she become your enemy, the reason is..
no idea...told you im innocent wad...!!! :(((((((((

9. The most desirable thing to do for him is?
submit the monday captain ball thingy? [but i never did :x]

10. The overall impression of him is...
cool? funny? and dislkes holding girls hands?

11. How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
im a timid person? ._.

12. The character of you for yourself is?
because I love myself for being me

13. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
eh....i love myself...that's that...

14. The most ideal person you want to be is?
no one. myself. i still love myself n im better then anyone else although u think i suck

15. For the people who care about and likes you, say something about them.
I love you all~x3

*i lazy to tag pple leh...i change question better...

Ten people whom you're thinking now.
1. Sara
2. Yean Lynn
3. Si Ting
4. Him
5. lynnliu piggy
6. Pn.Alena [coz...i waiting for my science results nia...==]
7. Him
8. Him
9. Him
10. and Him

Who is number 2 having a relationship with?
LOL...Yean!! Lucky you...== Mok Wai Hoe

Is number 3 a male of a female?
100% female

If number 7 and 10 were together would it be a good thing?
Eeww...gross...

How about number 5 and 8?
piggy got a boyfriend...==

What is number 1 studying about?
Art Stream~Accounting, Art, Economics, etc.

Is number 4 single?
NO!!! HE'S TAKEN BY ME!! :((( Don't try to snatch him away from me

Say something about 6?
My science teacher. Adores me most~x3 And i too, adore her x3.
Hope her son gets well soon from a decease which i forgot wat was it...
And I'm waiting for her to mark my results. ==

I notice that...this isn't the Chuah Siew Lin I knew back then...

she doesn't type foul languages nor types "*"...

this is not the old me...this is the new me who is turning over to the bad side...

What am I doing?

I'm being brain-wash for all these while and I didn't even realise it...

Wake up Siew Lin!!!

This isn't me...I'm faking the old Siew Lin...

I, Chuah Siew Lin, is not allowed to type nor say any foul languages, starting from today onwards and will follow the 5 precepts as stated in the Buddhist 5 Precepts.
Siew Lin.





I realise I can't cry over spilt milk anymore.

Over that fail economy subject...can't help...it's already over...

If the school were to force me to drop the subject...
I WILL NOT...i think...

I HAVE MY RIGHTS!!! WHY DO THEY WANT US TO DROP THE SUBJECT WHEN WE FAILED IT WHEN THEY EVEN WANT US TO LEARN IT IN THE FIRST PLACE!!!

I MAY NOT HAVE THE BRAINS TO THINK LOGICALLY BUT I HAVE THE TALENTS TO SHOW THEM, I WILL!!!

I MAY HAVE FAIL IT 3 TIMES OR 4 TIMES IN A ROW BUT SO WHAT?

WHY CAN'T LET US LEARN ECONOMY TILL NEXT YEAR SPM?

WHAT TYPE OF SCHOOL IS THIS?

STUPID SCHOOL!!! LOOK DOWN ON US LIKE THIS.

DON'T U DARE LOOK DOWN ON US & ECSPECIALLY ME!!!

IF I CAN DO IT, I WILL DO IT!!!

Got back my Paper 2 Economics Paper...

Wt*...

Put all my effort and hard work for that ****ing paper and I got 17 out of 100...
That's just...like...30% of chances I will fail!!! Wth...?!

According to Sara's calculation...& her predictions......*coughs*

If I get 40 questions all correct in Economics Paper 1, I will have a just-nice pass results...

*tut*

Who do you think I am? GOD?!
(If I were one, I wouldn't have created exams...)

I can't get all 40 questions correct!!!...so far...only 10-15 question I only can get it right...

HaizzZ...

Sara suggested I cheat in test to get the marks so that I won't drop my economics for SPM...it's an reasonable excuse to cheat....

-___- wait...I'm not those kind of students who cheats in tests, right Chuah Siew Lin?

I'm innocent!!! I won't do that. That's...a sin? lol...no, seriously...I won't do that if not I banned myself eating Char Siew Pao for the whole month...TT

Oh, btw...those students who cheated in test, some got a little bit higher then me but mostly all lower marks...hohoho...their so stupid...really...just a bunch of faggots who is too lazy to use their brains to think.

Get it?

F-A-G-G-O-T-S

The highest marks so far in class is 50++, scored by Ching Mae.

Sara got 38~lol...

Most common results were about 20-30++ only...

fail bah...!!!

My classmates who is sitting the same boat as mine (same results as mine), so far I know is Tracy & Yee Ling. -.- haizz...

*Siew Lin, Tracy and Yee Ling on the boat, singing*
*Row-row-row your boat gently down the stream...*
*Sees waterfall*
*Everyone screams and rows backwards faster* (-.-...see...im being lame again...)

I understand the lessons so far but yet still fail...

MERVYNN THINKS THAT MY ECONOMICS WERE SO PRO!!! *faints & dies*

WHY?!! WHY DOES IS HAVE TO BE LIKE THIS?!

TELL ME WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*sigh...............

my first subject that failed...

what's next then?

Recently...

I met a guy...

He studies in the same school as mine. But 1 year older then me. He was in a relationship, with his girlfriend. Yes, she's very pretty and fair indeed. She can run faster then me too!!! D:< roar....

We sometimes chat together in MSN whenever we were online, but never talk in school, but the common's "Hi" & "Bye" greetings.

I call him fat fat. And he calls me pau pau. (-__-" lol)

Like my own self, I talk to him like the way I always talk to my friends...
to put it simple, being myself.

Then we would always call each other stupid or dumb dumb, etc.etc.

One fine day, he told me that his relationship broke up. I didn't ask him why, because....

I'm not a busybody...lol...(unlike somebody...)

Then...

out of nowhere...

he ask me...

to be his gf...

I dunno what happen to me after that, the receptors in my head lost connection and I couldn't think.

Thank God, I was able to think again...and I snapped into my senses...

and I say, I'm not interested...

He ask me why? I confronted him that I'm really not interested to be in a relationship and how could we like each other when we just only known each other in such a short amount of time.

I am really not interested in love anymore...

He say that we could try...but I confronted him again saying that it won't work out like we think it could...

After that, we didn't talk about it anymore...

...he will be having his SPM not long after these few weeks...he asked me wheather I could teach him Form 4 Science, since I was "good" at it...

I agreed and planned to stay back on Wednesday after school to teach him Science, which when the school reopens after the Deepavali holidays...

I was nervous at first, but in my other way of thinking...

I will take up my challenge for what God has planned for me and will fulfil it.
Maybe God wants me to help this person? I don't have a clue.

Then somehow on that day, after school...

the school library was close...and he first time walk to me and told me he's not staying back to study and going home...

I slumped into the canteen chair and acted as if I was dissapointed.
He asked me wheather I want to come over his house.

Of coz...my answer is a BLOODY NO!!!

I said nevermind and bid him farewell.

Deep inside, I was angry. Angry of what?
Angry of wasting my time loh, then what?

Sara was forced to stay back with me just to teached that bloody guy...

And all I cost for her is hardship for her to stay back with me doing nothing...

Yean Lynn was laughing at me and saying I'm so so so so so so...watever she says la...sumthing about me too kind-hearted or watever...

She rubbed the salt into my wounds, and make my feelings even worst...

Funny, I found it, because I didn't burst out crying like a baby...lol...

I've changed. Hardly.

So, I stayed back with Sara till 4pm studying Science together. After that, we walk to 7-Eleven to relax ourself. Only the 2 of us.

Somehow I feel so bad for making Sara stay back with me...for nothing.

A COMPLETE JERK HE IS...

Exams again....

9.30am...

Science Paper 2...

Mikhail arranged his specs.
Ching Mae turns around and ask Si Ting the time.
Si Ting answers Ching Mae.
Ivy shakes liquid paper.
Hooi Sheng coughs.
Kavilan looks at siewlin and smiles at her retardedly.
Siew Jean shows the "makan nasi" sign.
Siew Lin shakes leg.
Ivy shakes liquid paper again.
Jason acts like a ****ing retard.
Alvin looks at the back.
Jey Quang makes funny noises.
Teck Sin sleeps.
Zhi Bin walks pass the class.
Pn. Kamaratun gives warning.
Kenton follows Jason retartedly. (those 2 were faggots)
Sara daydreams.
Siew Lin goes hungry.
Chien Hou came back from the gents.

The bell rang...

It was 9.50am...

Cik Sugu walks by.
Siew Lin looks at Yee Ling.
Yee Ling drinks water and looks at Siew Lin.
Pn.Kamaratun walks out and talks to Pn.Rosila.
Pn.Kamaratun walks back in.
Joel walks by.
Jason winks and smiles.
Siew Lin feels like slapping him.
Mervynn scribbles the answers.
Jia Ying is hallucinating.

Silence.............

and...

Siew Lin realises...

that she was writting everything on the answer sheets...

DAM THOSE FOOD!!!!
DAM THOSE COOKERS!!!
DAM MYSELF!!!

see, siewlin...who ask you so greedy...eat so many junk food, in the end you ended up going to the toilet for the 6th time already...serve you RIGHT STUPID CHARSIEWPAO!!!

Been going to the toilet for freaking 6 times!!! Break my own record leh...

What did I ate wrong wor...??

Just about 3.30pm, I had :

1 chicken burger
2 fried chicken
a slice of tomato
a slice of cucumber
raw carbage
a cup of carrot juice
a few frech fries

Nothing else other then that...-.-" it was really killing me...

Wanted to go swimming at 6pm. But, it was 4pm under the hot scorching sun and mom only let me swim for 30 minutes then quickly bath and go home.

THAT'S like.......SOOOOoooo little time for me to swim!!

I thought I can go for a excercise, continuing from yesterday's excercise, and since it's been a long time since I didn't go swimming...but nvm...*sigh

The old women make me do this thing, just because I didn't sweep & mop the ****ing floor because I didn't give a DAM about it.
Wiping the fan.
She's been telling all her ****ing friends how lazy I am and all the bad stuff she can think about to embarrass me, that ****ing women.
I DON'T GIVE A DAM ABOUT HER. COZ SHE'NOT MY GRANDMOTHER OR RELATED BLOOD RELATIVE.

I just wish to move out faster from her dam home with her dam dogs!!!


Need to climb all the way up to wipe the fan. You know I'm short and I HATE HEIGHTS!!! (That's the living room)
I was trembling at the top of the ladder, cursing the old women at the same time. If I died falling down from the ladder, she's gonna have to buy me a gold coffin together with all the char siew paos!! :(


That door is to the old women's room. As usual, I need to climb all the way up.

I HATE HEIGHTS!!! ='(
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Yesterday,

went for 30 minute excercise...

you don't know how it felt so good for the first time, staying fit and healthy (not really)...

Warm up,
Ran 2 rounds around the neighbourhood (wanted to run more rounds),
Then 40 push ups,
40 sit ups,
half squat 1 minute,
jump 10 times (im trying to grow taller)
and
squatting and jumping around the house 40 times.

AND I FORGOT TO DO COOLING DOWN EXCERCISE!!! NOOOOOOOOOO!! TT

At the end of the excercise, I was sweating and my legs were all trembling. Any sooner, I can fall down. And mom make me walk with her to Pasar Malam...-.-
Exchausted!!! xD

The next day, all the mucsles were all aching~weeeee~~~


This was yesterday's lunch~cococrunch~!!!! >.<


And this is yesterday's dessert after dinner~Tong Sui~~!!! xD

Just for now.

The tension was so maginificent! Everyone in the room were vomitting their own brains out, finishing the Accounts Paper 2 Test.

2 hours and 30 minutes we sat. The Last Paper. The Only First Week. Butts Aching. More Scribbling. Time Ticking. Hair Scratching. Papers flipping.

There's so much tension to get this dam* paper over with!

Yes! YES! It's Friday! Finally! As if someone was screaming in their heads.

Students rushed in quickly. They were 10 minutes late for the Test Paper! Everyone rushing each other to hurry up to get to their places.

The paper was destribute. Everyone started flipping those thick inch papers.
Groans can be heard across the classroom.
Argh!! Accounts!!

The whole class suddenly fell into a deep dead silence. Even a pin can be heard being droped onto the floor opposite the next class.

Frustration grew, and grew...

Even the smartest girl in class can't seemed to get an answer!
No! Why?! WHY?! She screamed inside her head.


In the meantime...........................


2 blocks away from the examination place...
The Form 3 students who've just finished their PMR test, were now rocking the the assembly stage. Enjoying themselves to the core!
Sending crowds of students to an anchore! Anchore! ANCHORE! ANCHORE!!

A student sends the crowd go wild by Singing 'What About Now' by Chris Doughtry.
Oh, gosh. Millions of screams can be heard. Shouting & screaming like sarcastic wild animals!

Back to the examination, the tension room...........

Argh! Whose horrible singing is that!!! Argh!!! ALL MY CALCULATIONS ALL WRONG!!!
The screams!! ARGH!!!

Everyone groans and cries in frustration due to the horrible singing. Miss Liew gave the class a funny look at her face. The one that shows,'Oh my Goodness. What's with all with that horrible singing'. Everyone must be thinking that the exam paper is already making them hard, the singing is even adding more salt & pepper into their problems.

Argh!!! They screamed!!!

12.30pm, other students have went back home. Only left was students who were taking the Accounts Exam stayed back, countinuing with the thick long paper!

AND ONLY 30 MINUTES LEFT!!! Tension grew to frustration. Frustration grew to CRAVING!

Tapping the calculators so hard, I can hear the tables shaking!

5 minutes left, the teacher said. Everyone cries, FASTER FOR PEACE SAKE!

Flipping pages here and there, Papers flying everywhere! Ruler here, pencil there, eraser dropped , they don't care!

1.10pm, students from other class can be heard talking and giggling.
It was finally over. WAIT! Not just yet. This is only the 1st week of course, which means 2 more weeks to go people! x]

Well, we don't have to care for anymore hard subjects right now, no? :)
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Lol...end of my, emotional story...I think...lol...while writting it, I felt the tension inside me, like want to write more AND WITH DEEPER details...xD

But things must come to an end, no? :(

Last night slept at 12am. Woke up at 4am to study. Drank chicken escence to stay alert. Gave up in studying Accounts at 5.30am. 6am took 30 minute sleep on the chair. 7am went to school and exam starts. Pray pray can pass with flying colours! x3
No flying colours also at least get black and white colours I also don't mind. LOL!!! XD

Yeah! Finally change my friendster profile background & song~
(due to people saying that my previous background sucks...-.-" tsk...so mean...)
it's an anime which is call, Romeo X Juliet =] nice anime show but reach middle of story plot then boring liao...-_-

Look! Look at this video. Lol...You Raise Me Up In Japanese Version xD


Hehe...Nice or weird? lol...I know la....there's no flying HORSES IN REAL LIFE!! IT IS CALLED, Animation. x3

AND LOOK AT THIS GUY!!! OMFG!!! HE SO HOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!

So breath taking!! so cool!!! *SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH* <33333333

Till then.

Yesterday, mom brought me to see a fortune teller.

I don't believe in such things, because...I don't believe in them...but can you imagine sometimes their answers are accurate? Not 100% accurate I mean...but it's good to hear, but not to thrust them...

Mom was pissed off on the way there, coz of...dunno...she very rude d when she's pissed off...-.-"

I told her that this is the 2nd and the last time I ever want to see a fortune teller...

I don't want my future to be read and be planned by them.
Just who they think they are? It's not their life. IT'S MINE!!!

Mom went in first, I waited outside on the sofa. Waited until almost fell asleep then mom ask me to come in :]


This is where the fun part starts, where the fortune-teller reads about me...


She talks in chinese & cantonese. Since both my language suckz, we communicate in chinese then. She was in her 40's I think.


She says :

-that if I become a little bit lazy, I won't become sucessful in the future
-that I'm not interested in studying (not true :( )
-that my dream to be an arhictect will not lead me to a happy life & a good pay
-suggested me to work as an Hotel Management or Accountant
-I didn't drink enough of water (quite true)
-I will wear specs in the future (hope not...)
-*she looks at my palm* I'm scared of cold (yup...true)
-I love counting, Maths, etc (NO!!! NOT TRUE!!!! I HATE MATHS!!!)
-I'm very stubborn (am I?)
-I am smart (erh...I have no idea...)
-won't spend money on anything unwisely (quite true)
-im too soft-heart, means too kind to people
-my name, Chuah Siew Lin, is a not a good name, she says Celine makes a better name for me (what's wrong with my name...I love my name =( )
-my final year end school tests results is okay

Then she talks about my love life, I lied to her that I don't have a BF, (because my mom is there ma ><)...

she says :

-that I love to "ai mei", means to be beautiful

...

WTF? SOOOOOOOOOOO NOT BLOODY TRUE!!! IF I WERE TO BE BEAUTIFUL, I WOULD HAVE GO FOR A MILLION BLOODY FACIAL TREATMENTS TO GET ALL THOSE DISGUSTING PIMPLES,
I WOULD HAVE LEAVE LONG HAIR!!! (which I probably won't...)
I WOULD HAVE GONE TO THE RESTROOM DURING CLASS LESSONS AND ADORE MYSELF, LOOKING AT THE MIRROR TILL DAWN!!!
*cough *cough....as you can see...I like the way I look...TY...

-that I will have many boys who will like me next year

...

After hearing that, I burst out laughing. Then I told her calmly, I will vomit blood...


Charming, charming...that's all she says about me...
She uses the Tarot Cards to read my future...
That's all bah...the rest harder chinese can't make me understand coz she doesn't talk English...how so-not-wonderful..zzz...

So, anyway...no one make plans for my future...only me!!! NOT SOME FORTUNE TELLER!!!

But, I like those mystery meanings in those Tarot Cards... :D


I got this card during my love life reading :D

Today Maths Exam wasn't that easy...

Paper 2 quite hard...but I didn't leave anything empty in the paper...

coz...

I wrote......

"I don't know how to do =)"

in each question which I dunno how to do...makes me laugh...xD

I felt like I haven't slept the whole night...@_@ so tired...

Nothing much today...felt quite angry at something...and also quite sad...
and...really...it hurts...

the wounds won't heal back treaten by the medicins...coz it will never heal back....



This is my table...kinda messy, Huh?


A closer look at it?



There!! :)



This is my cat. No name though. But I call him Meow-E =)



This is where I study. The kitchen. The place is dark because the light is spoiled. This is where I've been studying for the last 4 years. It's very scary because the window showing outside is the back door...but what to do...that's the only place where I can study...





Study, study, study, study, study, study, study, study, study, study, study, study, study....


Tomorrow Economic Paper 2!!! Fail 3 times, but hope I won't fail this last term!!!
I CAN DO IT!!

Since after the post was fixed, I didn't care about it anymore...

It was a few months back already that I don't want to bring it back again.

Then, today...I had a feeling of betrayal of the whole team....

It was a feeling of anger...hatefulness...and it hurts me so much...it really does...

...it wasn't only the team...but reflects friendship as well...


During after school, in the canteen, having my lunch with Y and staying back to study Economics together later...

L showed up, I've finished eating my bread then decided to throw away the wrapper...
And a feeling of disgust of what I saw...

L was wearing her St.John Half-U...what worse can it get, when her clothes were tucking out from her pants like a samseng beggar...

Just remembered that L was the Head of the Team...and her way of doing things is...not being disciplined?

I lightly beat her butt with the back of my hand...taking it as a joke...

...and...she returned me by throwing a paper into my face...

B.I.N.G.O!!! It hitted my eyes...

Oh, gosh...can imagine...the pain...the striking pain...

I took it seriously now and beat her a few times, not really hard I guess, barely using my energy and I threw the paper away from her...filled with frustration...

Then she say outloud at me in front of M and Y...saying why should she tucked her clothes like a nerd like me!

It felt so hurtful at first, but then I got my rights because it was discipline for the Team sake!!!

I didn't manage to say it, because my vision was very blurred...

Then she added on, saying that, and it looks cool when you wear it like that...

Like...what the ****? I don't care how cool you look! I don't care how pretty you are! I don't care how "YENG" you wear the clothes! JUST 1 THING I WANT THE WHOLE TEAM TO KNOW AND KEEP IN MIND, THAT DISCIPLINE COMES FIRST!!!!

My heart came crashing down when she continued, who do you think you are?

**** IT!!! WHO DO YOU THINK AM I? I AM THE PART OF THE MEMBER DAM IT!!! ****!!!!
WHO ARE YOU?! YOU ARE THE TEAM LEADER!!! DAM IT!!!
AND IS THAT THE WAY TO TREAT YOUR MEMBER WHO HAVE JUST ONLY ASKED YOU TO TUCKED IN YOUR CLOTHES?! FARK IT!!!

Giving me a piece of shyt hell of a life time...
if not Maths Exam was giving me a hard time earlier...
Then came adding along the dicsipline of the whole team like...

****

EVEN THE JUNIORS WERE BETTER THEN THE SENIOR!!!
OH MY GOSH!!! SERIOUSLY!!!!
I ENYEVED THEM A WHOLE LOT BETTER THEN THE ****ING "FUTURE SENIORS" OF THE TEAM!!!!

Saying this makes me very angry...
and I wanted to blurt all that feeling away to someone...but just to whom right now?

It's only you bloggey...and it hurts me so much saying this...
so much...

Is that the way of a head leader of the team suppose to be? Is it?
I just want things to get better and not worser.

But then...thinking about it...
I really thought, with their attitude like that...(ecspecially the team leader)...
the team is going no where better...then the drain...