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Andrew's words had moved Cecelia very deeply and this was the first time she had felt this way before.

Deeply touched, Cecelia started tearing. She tried to stop her tears from flowing out but it just kept on flowing. Andrew move forward to give her a hug.

Suddenly, Cecelia felt a sharp pain on her chest. She started having difficulty in breathing. She grabbed hold of his hands, looking painfully at him. The look which sent needles piercing right against his heart.

"....pain.....," Cecelia managed to muttered.

Her head started spinning, images were playing with her eyes as she slowly blacked out and fell backwards towards the soft landing sand. With Andrew's fast reaction, swiftly and smoothly, he prevented her to fall hard backwards against the sand.

"Cecelia! What's wrong,"shouted Andrew.

There were no responses coming from Cecelia but the sounds of the sea hitting against the shore.
Andrew shook her hard.

"Cecelia," Andrew shouted louder.

Still, there weren't a slightest movement coming from her.

Suddenly, they were surrounded by a group of man in black tuxedos. Before Andrew could know what was happening, Andrew was struggling against two big size man who is trying to hold him back, away from Cecelia. A middle age man, swiftly and firmly carried Cecelia in his arms, walking up the flight of stairs to the black Mercedes Benz.

"Let me go!!!" He shouted.

He struggle desperately and violently to free himself from the two man, but the more he tries to struggle, the tighter the grip they did on him. They were just too strong for him.

"It's pointless struggling against them."

A deep voice spoke.

Andrew scanned around the area to locate the was voice from where it's coming from. He noticed a dark figure standing in between two bodyguards. The dark figure slowly approached him and soon, he was able to see the face of an elderly man, Nigel.

"Who are you," Andrew growled.

"My name is Nigel. I meant no harm to come to both of you,"Nigel said,"unless you've gone too far to hurt Young Master that is."

He lightly waved his hands. Andrew felt the grip around his arms slowly being released. Why is he being so nice to me, Andrew thought as he rubbed his arms.

"What you mean gone to far," Andrew asked, curiously.

"I was instructed by Master to separate the both of you, from preventing Young Master from getting hurt."

"Hurt? What's wrong with Cecelia?! Is she all right?! What illness is it that is hurting her?! "

Andrew was desperate to know what's happening to Cecelia.

"It is not any illness that she's suffering," Nigel paused,"It is you."

Andrew was dumbstruck for a moment.
Me? What did I do to make her feel hurt?!

"I don't get what you mean. She's fine the whole time, how could you say she's feeling hurt because of me?!"

"Are you sure she was feeling fine?"

That question hit Andrew like a big boulder slamming against his body. Andrew was speechless for a moment, gazing out into the beach.

"...she...she felt pain in her chest earlier...and I didn't know what to do...," Andrew said.

Nigel sigh. "Let's take a walk boy."

Andrew followed Nigel, slowly walking behind him. Questions came flooding in his head.
What is happening here?

"Cecelia's mother was a great women. She was pretty and kind. She was different from any other ladies. The type of lady that guys will go looking after."

Andrew just kept quiet, listening to his story as he gaze out into the sea.

"She fell in love with a man. The man, also known as Cecelia's original father. Cecelia's father comes from a poor family. But he was indeed a great and hardworking man. They love each other so much that they decided to elope together due to the rejection of her family for marrying a poor man. But a few months later after she got pregnant , he fell seriously ill and couldn't recover and died a slow and painful death. His death made life so meaningless to her and she doesn't find life so interesting to live anymore."

"Then, what happen next," Andrew asked, getting into the story.

"One day, Master found her lying unconsciously on a beach. He was her former old classmate. He took her back to his house and he took good care of her, feed her and providing her a place to live in. Luckily though, the baby was still able to continue living in the stomach. He brought back happiness into her life, making her think that life is worth living for other then living to love someone.

His tenderness and loving kindness towards her finally brought the true colours of him as he fell deeply in love with her. Before he could tell his true feelings towards her, she passed away 2 years later after giving birth to Cecelia. He was deeply sadden by this news but he move on with his life.

Master took great care of Cecelia. Cecelia meant the whole world to him. She was her one and only daughter he love. She was like a precious gift from God to him."

"But I don't get it, what does this have to do with her illness then? And what sort of illness she's suffering from,"Andrew asked.

"At the age 10, Cecelia was admitted to the hospital due to a sudden pain in her chest and breathing difficulties. The doctor couldn't figure out what illness it was, it was an illness never seen before. There was no cure to this illness. But, we figure it out the illness she's suffering. Her illness seems to strike whenever her relationship gets too close with someone. After that, everyone in the family distance themselves from Cecelia. Trying not to get too close to her. Her illness became less severe and there weren't any signs of that illness since after that, until now."

Andrew was lost in a midst of words.
"Does this means, if I get too close to Cecelia. Her illness will strike back," Andrew asked.

"Yes, and the more it happen, the shorter her life span will be."

Andrew felt his heart throbbing with pain and sadness as he stare blankly into space.
Why life is so unfair?

Birds started chirping, flying around happily. The sun was about to rise. The tide splashing against the crabs crawling on the shore.

Nigel look into Andrew's eyes and said," So, if you really love her that much, would you like to see her suffer this painful illness? Or will you grant her a wish that will make her the most happiest girl to ever live before she dies?"

Nigel turned around and walk away, leaving Andrew deep into thoughts.

"The choice is yours boy. What will you choose?" Nigel said aloud without looking back as he soon disappeared out of sight.

Andrew was deep into thoughts. He was confused about his decisions. What am I to do?! He kicked the sand into the sea, filled with frustrations. He dug his hands into the sand and threw it at the ocean.

"Argh!!! Why is life so unfair?! Why does it have to be unfair to her?! Why God?! Why?!"

He felled back onto his butt. Sweating and panting. He dug his hands deep into the sand and held it into his fist.

Out of a sudden, something snapped inside his mind. He has made his decision. He was certain of it.

And he will not turn back.


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Dear Peter,

by the time you read this. I'm already gone to another world. I just want you to know my true feelings that I've been hiding for so long. Until now, it was really hard for me to write my feeling down into this paper.

You have brought me a new life. You were always there to make me smile. You took good care of me when I'm in need of hope. You gave me hope and everything. And yet, I was blinded with your kindness and loving care. I was in love with this person. I didn't want to let you know, because after I left, I was scared you will suffer the same fate as I did. But, no matter what, I will always be there to watch over you and my baby.

Please take care of my baby. For this is my only gift to you.

Love,
Angel
I love you. Truly, deeply.

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Just finish watching this movie called "Mamma Mia". A very nice show. =D
Classical Music, Comedy Movie. Nice for those who knows those oldy-songs + the songs is updated a bit larh. =)
Aww...C'mon...teenagers should learn to watch this kind of movie :D

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Is Valentines Day a really big occasion?

Sheesh...1 week before 14th February I will hear...

"This Saturday Valentines Day leh..."
"Eh! Who you're going out on Valentines Day?"
etc.

Sheeeeeeeeeesh...what's the big deal?!

If this isn't driving me crazy, the love songs in the radio is. ~______~

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Anyway,

The Valentines Day started off with school.
Yes, you heard me. SCHOOL ON VALENTINES DAY.
EARLY IN THE MORNING.

One thing I hate about it, is waking up early in the morning on Saturday's.
But the good news is, no need to study for today.
Because we're cleaning the school compound! Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!

We were going to paint the school today.
Well, too bad I can't get to paint. *sigh*
Coz I was in charge of cleaning the First Aid Room :(

There were about 6 helpers helping me to clean the FAR.
Only 4 turned up & 1 volunteered to help.
5 girls (including me) and a boy, Syn Karl. Poor Syn Karl ;X

So, practically, I was taking charge of it :)

Half way through, 2 girls left to clean their classroom :(
So, we were left with many things to do.

The floor was like..very dirty, even after moping the floor 4 times, the pail of detergent water turns black. -____________-

I don't know WHICH SENIOR KADET SO SMART ARH...
the spare curtains didn't wash, go put under the sink there, then when I want to use, it's dirty.
WHO SO RESPONSIBLE ARH?????!!!!

In the end, I took all the curtains home to wash. Sheesh...

View Of F.A.R :

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Please don't take things seriously. I like teaching First Aid things. It's just that, what I seem to want, I can't have it. And because of that, I have to sacrifice the things which I love the most and surrender to those who needed me. *sigh*