Since after the post was fixed, I didn't care about it anymore...

It was a few months back already that I don't want to bring it back again.

Then, today...I had a feeling of betrayal of the whole team....

It was a feeling of anger...hatefulness...and it hurts me so much...it really does...

...it wasn't only the team...but reflects friendship as well...


During after school, in the canteen, having my lunch with Y and staying back to study Economics together later...

L showed up, I've finished eating my bread then decided to throw away the wrapper...
And a feeling of disgust of what I saw...

L was wearing her St.John Half-U...what worse can it get, when her clothes were tucking out from her pants like a samseng beggar...

Just remembered that L was the Head of the Team...and her way of doing things is...not being disciplined?

I lightly beat her butt with the back of my hand...taking it as a joke...

...and...she returned me by throwing a paper into my face...

B.I.N.G.O!!! It hitted my eyes...

Oh, gosh...can imagine...the pain...the striking pain...

I took it seriously now and beat her a few times, not really hard I guess, barely using my energy and I threw the paper away from her...filled with frustration...

Then she say outloud at me in front of M and Y...saying why should she tucked her clothes like a nerd like me!

It felt so hurtful at first, but then I got my rights because it was discipline for the Team sake!!!

I didn't manage to say it, because my vision was very blurred...

Then she added on, saying that, and it looks cool when you wear it like that...

Like...what the ****? I don't care how cool you look! I don't care how pretty you are! I don't care how "YENG" you wear the clothes! JUST 1 THING I WANT THE WHOLE TEAM TO KNOW AND KEEP IN MIND, THAT DISCIPLINE COMES FIRST!!!!

My heart came crashing down when she continued, who do you think you are?

**** IT!!! WHO DO YOU THINK AM I? I AM THE PART OF THE MEMBER DAM IT!!! ****!!!!
WHO ARE YOU?! YOU ARE THE TEAM LEADER!!! DAM IT!!!
AND IS THAT THE WAY TO TREAT YOUR MEMBER WHO HAVE JUST ONLY ASKED YOU TO TUCKED IN YOUR CLOTHES?! FARK IT!!!

Giving me a piece of shyt hell of a life time...
if not Maths Exam was giving me a hard time earlier...
Then came adding along the dicsipline of the whole team like...

****

EVEN THE JUNIORS WERE BETTER THEN THE SENIOR!!!
OH MY GOSH!!! SERIOUSLY!!!!
I ENYEVED THEM A WHOLE LOT BETTER THEN THE ****ING "FUTURE SENIORS" OF THE TEAM!!!!

Saying this makes me very angry...
and I wanted to blurt all that feeling away to someone...but just to whom right now?

It's only you bloggey...and it hurts me so much saying this...
so much...

Is that the way of a head leader of the team suppose to be? Is it?
I just want things to get better and not worser.

But then...thinking about it...
I really thought, with their attitude like that...(ecspecially the team leader)...
the team is going no where better...then the drain...

Yesterday's blog, no time to blog so I'll blog about yesterday..

B.M test yesterday was okay I guess...hope can pass~pray pray~ x3

Then stay back with Lydia Cheong to teach me Accounts...but in the end...I still don't get it...zzzz...but at least I got to know her more... :)

Then 4.15pm, she went back home. I alight the bus at Hospital Desa then walk all the way to the post office there...

There were some people waiting there too, waited for about 1 hour, then it started to rain very heavily and so windy...@_@

I stood up and waited at the bus stop with everyone else...and I realise that they were waiting for the same bus as me too~ =D

I was soaking wet...my skirt wet...my sleeves wet & my 1st day of school shoe is wet!!!! TT...and it was sooooo cold....@_@ n my bus ticket also wet...zzzz....

Then 6pm!!! Bus 71 finally arive leh!!!! I was cursing the bus the whole time by the way...

The bus was packed...full of people...we have to force our way in...lol....

then finally reached home...it stopped raining. it was 6.15pm

actually wanted to call mom to fetch me since she's not working...but realise that she started work...-.- haizz...

OKAY...today is English test...not that hard...but...I was feeling very weird and after reading some text...I found it hard...@_@

Eh....how can english be hard for Chuah Siew Lin? That's so not me man!!!
I will get A1!!! I WILL!!!

The Paper 1...essay writting...-.-" dun have time to finish writting the story...-.- just didn't have enough time...-.-" even I go toilet also run then quickly come back..-.-" haizz...

Throw that aside...when was the last time I ever post pictures in the blog man...time for some pictures!!!
Enjoy readers =)

Starting time: 7.30pm
Name: Steffi Chuah Siew Lin
Sisters: Debra & Kimberly
Brothers: -

Shoe size: 5-6 (im still very short...-.-)
Height: Shortest in the family, so don't asked...
where do you live: ON EARTH

Favourite drinks: erm...water? [always like 100Plus after sports~x3]

Have you ever -

Been on a plane : Yea...that was 7 years ago...to L.A
Fallen asleep at school: Got...during economi lessons...
Broken someone's heart: Erm...did I? Don't think so...
Fell off your chair: Yea, last year...during class...(i wasn't sleeping)
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: No...I don't care whether he or she calls...just wanna sleep~x3

Saved e-mails: Yea..every e-mail I see...x3
What is your room like: One word, M-E-S-S-Y
The last thing you ate: Tiger Biscuit, just bought it back from school...
Ever had chicken pox: Everyone has it like duh, but I can't remember when was mine...
Sore throat: Everytime after laughing like crazy ^^v

Stitches: never...I hate stiches...
Broken nose: never...
Do you believe in love at first sight: yea...but now I don't :)
Like picnics: Erm...never had 1 before ._.
Who was/were the last person/people you danced with: I hate dancing...-.-
Last made you smile: Sylvester
You last yelled at: Let's see...the old lady staying at my house...

Today did you -

Talk to someone you like: No.
Kiss anyone: Go to hell
Get sick: I'm a strong girl :)
Talk to an ex: Do I look like I have an ex? NO!!!
Miss someone: Yea...I miss my lynnliu AND everyone in HEISERHUI!!! :( & Him :(
Eat: if I don't eat, my name is not Chuah Siew Lin

Best feeling in the world: When I'm with Him :)
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: ...no...-.-"
What's under your bed: Dust, spiders, cob-webs, flees, etc.
Who do you really hate: Saitan!!! I HATE YOU!!!
What time is it now? : 7.57pm

Random -

Is there a person who is on your mind now: Him ? :)
Do you have any siblings: 2 freaking pests loh...
Do you want children: wait till I'm older the ask me again...
Do you smile often: Hmm...guess so...except during exam days...
Do you like your hand-writing: I love the way who I am, so yeah! :)

Are your toe nails painted: No...hate nail polish!!!
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: His bed :)
What color shirt are you wearing now: green
What were you doing at 7:00 p.m. yesterday: Watching Mr.Bean

I can't wait till: I GO SINGAPORE!!!!
Are you a friendly person: what do you think? :) [To me, no]
Do you have any pets: Yea. 3 dogs & 2 cats
Where is the person you have feelings for right now?: Singapore....T_T
Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now?: Yea...she's my mom. AND I LOVE HER FOREVER!!! x3

Do you sleep with the TV on?: Nope. Seldom watch TV
What are you doing right now?: So many questions lah...wat tag is THIS MAN!!!
Have you ever crawled through a window?: No...
Are you too forgiving?: Forgive & forget :) that's me~x3
Are you closer to your mother or father?: Mother~I love you~x3
Who was the last person you cried in front of?: my mom...sleeping with her in her hospital bed...
How many people can you say you've really loved?: Everyone

Do you eat healthy?: I guess so
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex?: I don't have ex larh...-_-
Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you?: Yea...
If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to?: To my beloved radio...
Are you loud or quiet most of the time?: Quiet...im very timid d ._. thats my character
Are you confident?: Yeah~ Well...sometimes... :x

5 things I was doing 10 years ago:

1. studying in kindergarten
2. leading a lonely life
3. digging my nose
4. swimming lessons
5. moved to K.L & life have never been so much better :)

5 things on my to-do list today:

1. Finish this STUPID TAG!!!
2. Eat my dinner NOW after finishing this stupid TAG!!!!
3. Blog leh...-.-
4. Study...
5. Sleep.......................

5 snacks I enjoy:

1. Mr.Potato Chips :)
2. Waffles :)
3. Vanilla ice-cream x3
4. TIGER BISCUITTTTTTTTTTTTTS [ I'm addicted to it]
5. -

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:

1. pay all my mom's debts!!!!
2. buy a new house!!!!!
3. GO SINGAPORE!!!!!!!!
4. BUY MYSELF SOME A NEW UNIFORM AND SHOES AND EVERYTING NEW!!!!
5. and...donate to charity?

5 of my bad habits:

1. forgetful
2. blur...
3. very timid...sometimes...
4. biting the tip of a pen or pencil
5. sleeping late...lol...

5 places I have lived in:

1. Penang [6 years]
2. L.A [9 days]
3. Buddhist Maha Vihara Temple (Camping) [ 1 week]
4. K.L [6 years]
5. on EARTH...[till i breath my last breath]

5 jobs I've had:
1. wrapping presents?
2. voluntary work during Wesak Day at the temple :)
3. -
4. -
5. -

5 people I tag:
1. WaiWai =]
2. lynnliu piggy~x3
3. Justine~xD
4. QiiQii~botak~ :3
5. icecream :)



Good Luck Tagging This Freaking Long Tag...
I'm so glad is over!!! xD
See!!! NO TIME TO BLOG ABOUT TODAY!!!! ALL YOUR FAULT!!! :( stoooooooopid tag!!!! :(

I went into a book shop and found this particular book...it was a weird book at first...but I came to realise...it was Dr.Mahathir's, the retired Prime Minister of Malaysia, book about his blog.

I didn't know he blogs too...

yea...that's what I think also...but thinking of another way, he is human as well, just like us who also blogs as well...

His blog has...millions of comments...omg...I just scrolled down the page leh, not caring to read, coz too much...@_@

His blog is quite famous to some readers, as you know, he has the highest most viewed blog in the country.

I find his blog quite interesting, from him, you learn alot of things. :)

Please find the time to check it out will you? :)

time was ticking very slowly...

it was 9.43am...

and every minute catches my every attention to look at the opposite building from the window where I was silently reading my book...

anytime now...anytime...I said to myself...

within minutes, there were sounds of chairs dragging against the floor...
and then...each classes started cheering full of enjoyment...

some pleasant & relieved smiles were exchange with each other as the students started to pack their bags...

it was the end of the last paper, Geography. And PMR was finally over.

Goodbye PMR...and another 362 days to another PMR...lol...now is my sister's turn to suffer....MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

Seeing their happy faces brought back memories just then...realising I'm now in Form 4...-.-" Everything is so different when you reached this stage after PMR...

FREAKING STRESS!!!!

It's Friday, and the start of the Last Term Examinations...

Oh Gawd...it was Chinese paper today...luckily not taking it...
even if I did, I won't study and will simply write crab broken Chinese essays and pass it up. Even if I did, I still have a 40% of chances of passing it...xD

Study, study, study...

Sienz...no mood at all seeing those Form 3 students going home all so early after that last paper...and leaving us, Form 4...staying in school...

....studying...

Dammit...I try to force myself to study...

Well, I DID!!!

Study Accounts...not actually study...just..practise 1 question?

Then the stupid question cannot imbang...like...what's wrong with you?! Can't you make me feel any better by just letting me complete you without giving me any problems?!

I was getting out of hand...IT WAS FREAKING FRIDAY!!! HOW YOU EXPECT ME TO HAVE THE MOOD TO STUDY MAN!!!!

I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO STUDY!!! EVERYTHING I TRIED TO UNDERSTAND AND I DID BUT EVERYTHING I THINK IT WAS IS ALL WRONG!!!!

Haizz...it's....really.giving.me.too.much.already...I'm taking it as if I'm taking the test as if it was SPM...ZzZ...

I think I spend the whole day in school finishing the last 20 chapters of the story book...which I bought it recently, but didn't make myself finish reading it..lol...
This is the book I read :



I suggest, that if you're not the type of person who is not open-minded enough. Please don't read this. It contains...you-know-what.

I didn't know it myself. Because I thought the title was interesting to read, and also the written summary at the back...lol...

well...nothing much though, finished reading it today and added another collection of my many other story books...-.-
buying another 2 more to read...lol...

After school, 12.30pm, thought I can go home and have a break from everything...but, nooooooooooooooooooo...I need to stay back with Sara till 4.30pm to help Hui Mun with Accounts...crap!!!

Ahh....the things I do for friendship and my studies...

Stayed back with Sara, Hui Mun & Yean Lynn to study Accounts...-.- haizz...

But, I do 1 question then cannot imbang then I stopped doing already leh...it was 2.30pm++...
really don't have the mood to do anything on Friday...just wanna sleep...and take my mind off everything...

Then the rest of my time I was...wondering like a wondering ghost around the class corridor...looking around the school surroundings...

some things just make me quite curious about the history back then in school...

Nvm, throw that aside shall we?

Went Pasar Malam with Yean & Sara...haizz...I feel such a grown up person spending so much time hanging around with friends...lol...

and the stupid economy...I understand when teacher explains it in English but everything is all wrong when written in BM in the essays...

EVERYTHING!!! I JUST CAN'T SEEM TO PASS MY ECONOMY SINCE THE FIRST TERM EXAM!!!

SURE FAIL ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH....

WHY!!!!WHY!!!!!!!!!

Other then that, I'm quite lucky I wasn't in Science Stream.
Today Lydia ask me to ask her some...dunno what atoms formula from her book...something like...

Oxide Ion = [the formula]

then bla bla bla...

Oh my gawd....after asking her the questions, it's all formulas...like...what the heck ur talking about...?

You know...my memory sucks like hell...can't even remember where I put my own underwear also can...

THIS THINGS HAPPENS TO ME...

Then I just tell Lydia after finish questioning her...

"Here.[Pass book to her], if there's nothing else you want me to help you, then goodbye Lydia. I hate chemistry and don't ask me to ask you questions about it again."
[Continue reading storybook again after saying it]

P.S : My friends say my black eye ring looks obvious now...haizz...need sleep desperately....good nitez bloggey...love u so much...TT

lol..today for them is Living Skills & Chinese...hohoho...the subject which I hated the most since kindergarten till last year...

Luckily dropped that subject, although force to go lower class bcoz of tat...-.-

Remember one of the trails for the Chinese last year...

I was one of the weakest of the subject among the rest...and after passing up one of my Chinese essays...
my teacher mark half way then laugh at it...i knew it was mine, because it was poorly written with broken Chinese and no one will laugh at people's essays except mine...

Then teacher so bad...embarrass me by reading my essay out loud to the class...then everyone laughs at me....TT sobz...
Then I try not to make myself feel bad about that, I laugh with everyone else, just to hide the fact that I'm being shamed for...



Anyway, till today I feel good about myself, I didn't feel bad after that embarrassment...actually I felt good about it...

Coz it helps people laugh, and it makes me feel happy too seeing them laugh...lol...

I translate everything from Chinese and it's a form of a informal letter to a friends, whose grandfather just met in an accident. As shown below :

[Address]

Dear Xiao Ming,

hi, long time no see. how are you n ur family? me n my family here are fine.
your mom called me few days ago, telling me that your grandfather had met an accident few days ago and had pass away. don't be sad xiao ming, cheer up.
everyone will die someday, everyone won't live forever in this world. even i will die sumday. cheer up xiao ming.
oh yeah, i got 1st in the english competition. isn't tat good?
i shall stop right here now, xiao ming. keep in touch.
keep healthy.

[signature]
siewlin.


LMAO...if u read it in Chinese it's even way better then i translated it now. Since it's not anymore funny already...-.-"
"Xiao Ming" is the only simplest name I can think off that I can write. So, my teacher ask me one day in class,"Why you always write 'Xiao Ming' arh? You don't know any other names to write meh?"

Certainly not. x)

So, my post shall end right here for today. Tomorrow's the starting of the last term examination. Chinese paper. And I'm not taking it. :) Hooray me!!!

And tomorrow also PMR ending with the last paper, Geografi. lolx...
Hoooray for them...-.- and no hooray for all the Form 4 students....-.-"

No mood to study today

lol...what's with the funny title? Coz it's raining now...xD it's now 6.35pm, my revision break time~xD
YES!!! I MAKE IT TODAY AGAIN!!! lol...(i meant the afternoon revision)

Today the Form 3 students are taking Maths exam & the subject that's everyone most hated subject....muahahahaha...
His-to-ry...

I remember those were the days when I revise my Maths with Sara(last year)...

*flashbacks*

1 week before PMR Mathematics paper...
In the school library...

Me : Saraaaaaaaaaa!! Faster teach me this question!!! How to do?! Faster!!
Sara : Hai yah!! Wait la Pat-Poh!!!
Me : Faster!! *shakes Sara*
Sara : WAIT LA!!! *busy doing something else*
Me : FAS-TER!!! *beat Sara's arm repeatedly*
Sara : *growls at me*
Me : *laughs*
Sara : Which 1 ? *filled with frustration*
Me : This 1...*points at question*
Sara : *scribbles on the paper* Nah...*continue doing her work*
Me : How you get the answer...teach me...
Sara : Is like this...
....
Me : Why is 'y' here? How come?
Sara : *explains*
Me : oh......but then how you get 16 d?
Sara : *explains*



And that's how our revision was...kinda funny of course...I always make her so frustrated with all the 'why' and 'how come' and 'how you get this' questions. lolx.

But all of that pays off. I used to fail my maths. But after all those bullying Sara Maths revision, I got an B!!! Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! I was surprise at first. Never seen a B for Maths in my whole life.

And Sara, pat-poh got an A. =)

History, the Form 3 need to stay back at school or maybe go home if they want to...to take the History test paper...
Last year on that PMR day, we back at the classroom together with Su Wei, Lydia & Sara. The 4 old best friends...studying History? or maybe we were laughing and joking around? lolx...

Ok...-.-" my bad...I was the one who make the whole group can't study...lol...but I got an C for my History...lol

Mentioning about it...I last minute study...I think...
coz I just glance through the pages...and only read through some topics which recently always pop put during the exams...

And in the end, it really came out...lalalalalala...was over the moon...

Okay...not funny...today nothing much happen...so I'll just stop here at the moment...tataz~^^v

Early one morning,
The phone was calling,
I picked up the phone,
And heard a ringing tone.

It was Heng Yean Lynn,
Who wanted a gathering,
I ask, don't you have anything else to do?
She said, no, do you?

I slammed down the phone,
Ouch! Someone threw a chicken bone,
I roared, who dares to mess with my throne,
It is me, Nui Kuan Yee, the little one.

Here comes my entertaintment,
Forgetting all about the argument,
Lee Si Ting, the dancing girl,
Her moves will make you wanna swirl.

Comes along, Mok Wai Hoe,
He was busy learning Taekwando,
Standing beside was Alvin Ng Jia Tzi,
He was dead boring already.

Someone was knocking on the door,
It was SoLaFlameZ, whom I adore,
Piggy lynnliu was skipping along,
Singing out a lovely song.

Along came Chong Su Wei,
No one can defeat her in maths, no way!
Beside her was Chang Yan Ee,
My next year's Komander and Pengerusi.

Sitting down was philip tan,
I want to thank him for all he've done,
Cheryl and Wai Leong, now teaching me,
Don't maple! Must first study!

Now, my maths teacher Mr.Tan,
Teaching me Circles, 3, 2 and 1,
The group now cheering, HeiSerHui,
I won't forget you all this this day.

Enough, the party is over,
All go home now, I can't continue any longer,
Everyone went home in just a minute,
Peace and quiet, just what I need.

Throughout my journey,
I know it isn't easy,
But there's always a strategy,
And not forgetting, our family.

I shall end right here,
Without a single tear,
You must be wondering, who wrote this thing,
It is I, Chuah Siew Lin.


written originally by Chuah Siew Lin.
remixed with my real life friends & maple friends.
Dedicated to all whom read.

Copyright © All Rights Reserved

yes!!! Finally I MADE IT THROUGH THE 2 HOUR REVISION STUDY IN THE AFTERNOON!!!!

WOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOO!!!

5pm, now my break time babeh...whole day do revision on the stupid maths until even Sara also tired of teaching me liao...lol...

1 thing that no one can stand me is, teaching me.

That's the worst thing you ever wanna want to think off, Coz I will ask so many questions till that person will jump off KLCC building...lol...

Ok...last night, couldn't sleep whole night...coz afternoon suppose take short nap, slept at 6.30pm then woke up at 9pm...lol...like...wth? how am i gonna sleep tonight?

Then toss & turn in bed till I think 2am I was knocked off to sleep...but still woke up several times in the night around 5-6am.-.-"

Took my first coffee. I never drank coffee, coz got drugs...lolx...(tatz y it helps us to stay awake...duh...)
My first coffee was "Aik Cheong 3in1 White Coffee tarik"...
lol...first sip, send my to heaven...or hell?
coz is dammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm bitter....
then cannot waste leh...so drank the whole cup...in the end, almost wanted to vomit...

I thought of drinking coffee coz I didn't have enough sleep last night, so to keep me awake and to study/pay attention/revise in school I decided to drink loh...-.-"

But still in the end, on the 7th period, at 11.15am, I took a nap...lolx...but woke up 15 minutes later...after recess the whole lessons no teacher teach leh...

And...yeah!!! Sara finally fetch me early, at 7.05am.xD First time early for the week? lol...but still arrive to school late...ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ...

Today the Form 3 are taking Science paper leh...I WANT TAKE ALSO!!!! SOBZ...

Remember last year the science paper was freaking easy...lol...lalalalalala...wonder how was this year's question...so eager to see the science question leh...TT

Can anyone let me see? ='(

And, our relief teacher today told us that if anyone fail Accounts or Economi, they can't take that subject which you fail in SPM...sobz....and you are forced to drop it. Maybe even change class also...

like...wth?

I hear until want cry myself to study....it's so hard...
why.....................??????????????????????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

only now my fearful subject is Accounts & Economy...

like wth!!! those 2 subjects in farking BM which I can't even understand...

stupid eco in ESSAY!!! YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY??????????????????

I dun wanna drop class!!! if drop econs I dun mind...lol...

anyway...

MUST STUDY HARD!!!!

GOGOGO!!! You can do it!!

If you think you can, you can!!!

lol...it's the first day of PMR...thinking about it, makes me think about my own last term exams...zzzz....

Now...so far, finish revising for Science...only have the mood to study that....-.- lmao...

then..erm...ai seh...all the Moral Kata Kunci all forget leh...nvm...before exam just go memorise...lol...
then today revise some maths with myself...yeah!! Finally understand sets leh!!! Thanks Hui Mun!!! xD

[P.S : school library maths revision books SUCKZ]

then economi...erm....a little bit...then the rest I shoved aside...

okay...wat to study tonight...hmm....no idea...

Since there's "so many readers" coming to read my blog...better don't talk so much crap here...I've been spied...=x

It's a very small world...F3...

Mom is so healthy...that she almost nags at me every single day as usual...lol...

She can drive as well...but still on leave from work...(she took up all my space in bed.....zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz)

I'm so addicted to Charlie!!! I know it's childish...but I can't help it!!!! xD

It's just plain stupid...lol...

Here's part 1~xD