It's 3.13am now as I type this post. Gosh. I told myself to not start tearing up again, but here I am, bawling like a little baby. *sigh* I don't usually type my whole life story emotions here, but I'm just gonna do it once to let it all out. Countdown Time: 20 hours till Year 2013 * * * Recently, I met...
It's my 2nd time being part of this year's D2YC. Well, I gotta say it's a total different experience this year for me, as the organizing system is different, there's lesser things I'm in charge of, and there's a new generation batch of participants this year. Honestly, I personally think that the programs were quite good this year, but somehow, there are some...
I ensure you, 'these' people just want me to sell Char Siew Pork for a living. -.- Right. ...
I can't believe another year has passed, when it actually felt like it was just a few months ago when I just won my first competition: MTV Exit Bold Lipstick. Year 2012 has been a remarkable year for me. Where at this stage, I've experience a lot of failures, hardships, success, conflicts, and whatnots. It is indeed a busiest year for me, and...
If I told you, that I have a crush on him, would you believe me? If I told you, that he's the one for me, will you let him go, and let him be? If I told you, that I won't let him go, will you give him to me? ...
I am beautiful. I really am =) You know, after some time, I really thought about it. My face, I mean. I really think there's no point being so negative about my imperfect face. I'm gonna be stuck with this face for the rest of my life, so must as well make the best out of it. I believe if I stop living...
It's already mid November, the busiest period where by now, I'm suppose to be busy with my studies and assignment. But I'm here in front of my comp, sulking and blaming on my self-esteem. About how ugly I am. * * * Honestly speaking, I have a very low self-esteem. The only thing I'm sensitive about, is my face. Sometimes, I really envy...
I flipped through the pages of an old diary and I manage to find this particularly journal entry dated back in 2006. It was my first D2YC camp that I've attended few years ago. And this was how it had changed my life. P.S: Please pardon my spelling and grammar mistakes. I was dumb back then. * * * D2YC Camp 19th-24th December...
I used to think that we could be friends like... forever. But I don't believe in that anymore. The word FOREVER is such an overused word. People tend to change overtime when we're apart from each other. And I believe we have our own beliefs to follow due to what we've been exposed to. I'm tired of fighting. I'm tired of slapping sense...
Like an idiot, why didn't I know? Like an idiot, why did I let you go? Like an idiot, my heart cries slowly I know now My love is only you Even if my eyes look for you Even if my heart pressures me I didn't believe that it was love I believed that I was lonely and had to lean on you...
"It's been 2 weeks now, and we're nowhere near being prepared for the competition," Katey complained. "That's because you're not feeling it yet. The music. The emotions. The movements. Dancing with you it's like dancing with an iron-board," Javier commented. Katey sigh. "Closed your eyes," Javier continued. "Come on, closed it." Katey hesitated but still closes her eyes. Javiers puts his hands at Katey...
Dear BBS, thank you very much for attending tonight's gathering. I'm really happy that most of you had turn up even though some of you had other personal stuff to do. Although, the gathering could have been done better but I hope this won't be the first and the last time we'll be together like this. I'm really lucky to have met you...
Everyone has a secret. Friends, family, and relatives also has secrets. Even saints and holy priest has secrets. But the scariest thing is that... you don't know them. And they somehow hide it very well. . . . But if you have a chance, would you want know about that secret? What if... that secret is YOU. . . . Want to know...
Some people can make you grow. Some can grow old with you. And others can only be in your memories forever. ...
They said that all types of wishes come true, both positively and negatively as long as you have wish and thought of it. Whether it's the new outfit that you wished your boyfriend will buy for you, or thinking that it is impossible for you to travel to outstations... As long as you have thought of it (either negatively or positively) and have...
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I was hoping I could see you grow... but I guess reality is just too cruel to be true... You didn't really deserve it. May you rest in peace. ...
When I heard that you preferred a complementary. That was when I knew that I could never have you. ...
To all my friends, I would like to apologize for not making time to spend time with you. And I would like to apologize for always having to give the excuse of "too busy", "got other things to do", "not free", etc. Sometimes, I wish I had more time to hang out with you, and it's not that I couldn't manage my time,...
It was my first time donating blood, and it scared the shit out of me. I was about to chicken out, but something slap some courage into me and the next thing I knew, I was lying on the chair. But to be honest, it's the best experience ever and I never regretted doing it. Despite the after effects of donating blood, like...
I saw them quarrelling. In a busy and crowded cafeteria. "Why didn't you call me to let me know," the girl said, pointing her index finger furiously in his chest. That moment, as if time had stopped. Everything started to dissapear, and it was the only two of them. I couldn't hear anything. The boy looks like he was trying to reason with the...
No. I didn't went for the rally this year, although as much as I wanted to experience it, I was scared to go alone. I saw and read the news feed in Facebook. In my opinion, I don't really think this year's Bersih rally is a peaceful one. I saw people damaging the wires at the Dataran Merdeka and I felt really unhappy...
I still remember the same regular customers who would order the same thing over the past few days. The auntie with that thick mascara, flawless long hair, and face as pale as snow white. The 2 uncles. One was fat and he had that sleepy-look on his face. The other was a heavy smoker. But, they sounded really educated. By the way they...
And yes, 3 months of holiday-ing is over. Things have come to an end, which includes my job as well. So, hello to University and stress again!! That kind of feeling you get when you go to Uni. It feels kinda good, like a fresh new start in life. Studying in University is like having STPM every 3 months. It's like mind-fucking you....
Working as a waitress/waiter is tiring enough, and the the only thing you look forward to is tippings from customers. However, not every customers are nice enough to tip you (life's hard buddy). . It actually depends on where you're working at. If you're working in a very expensive restaurant, the possibility of getting tips are quite high. If you're working in a fast...
I believe it starts one step at a time and I have no idea where my dreams will take me. I believe the world is my treadmill. I believe my biggest inspiration is the person in front of me. I believe in solitude and community. I believe no decision should ever be made while running up hill. I believe that when I think...
Woke up this morning with puffy eyes. Still a bit stunted of what had happen yesterday. Went to work as usual, my feelings and emotions had finally settled down. Finally learnt how to accept the things the way they are. Now, I'm quite certain on what I want, and I'm going to be straight-forward with everyone and everything. If I can handle fussy...
I'm really worked up. Working as a part-time waitress and being a president for a orphanage outing which is due to be at the end of March. Committees not giving their support, all not coming for meeting, etc. This is my first time doing this event, and I admit it's totally mind-fuck. So, I'm sitting down in front of my computer and bawling...
Went to Mid Valley with my closed friend to get a "belated" valentines rose for a friend. While the florist was busy packing the rose, I went through the deck of cards that were up for display, and I bumped into this quote which was written inside in one of the cards. "For every minute you are angry you lose sixty seconds of...
Take risks. Sometimes, the rewards at the end might be worth the risk. Credits to JoYee. ...
Just recently started a new job as a waitress in a cafe. They are paying RM6 per hour, which is quite a descent salary for part-timers. This is the 6th day I have been working there. This is an one and only cafe in whole Malaysia. Thus, there are 5 boss (foreigners) who are in charge of this cafe!!! That's like, HOLY CRUTZ?!...
